If you know a Christian, a musician, a former psych student, an educator, or a massage therapist, (all of which I am or have been at one time) you likely know that they all share the same lovely quality: an unflappable calm that just flows through the room like filtered sunlight to the forest floor…
Unless, of course, we get triggered. Today has done just that for me. I got up early to do some exceedingly important things, only to find that due primarily to mechanical and/or organizational problems that I definitely did not create, none of them were possible…and I’ve ended up looking like an idiot because of it. So far today I’ve logged somewhere around six hours’ effort and and 35 miles of driving and absolutely no good has come of it that I can see. Also, if any of the problems were resolved I would feel better but they’re all still up in the air. If it keeps up this way, I’m still going to be working around most of my circumstances tomorrow.
I’m finally at a point where I could pick up and go somewhere else and try to get something or other done…maybe work on my recording project for RPM Challenge if nothing else…but I am so irritated and soul-weary from the whole thing that I really feel like I should be allowed to sleep through at least the next two days. I don’t feel like I have the energy or focus to have fun anymore today!
Couple that with the fact that today nearly everyone I know is out of town or otherwise occupied, and I’m left without much in the way of company for a pleasant distraction. I think perhaps what I’ll do is go home and listen to music…I’ve been very happy lately to find that I can listen and really focus and dive into a piece to a greater degree than I was for a long time. Maybe that will keep me from being such a cranky-pants. 
